Letter to Fear

Dear Fear,

I hear your whispered voice endlessly in my head, day after day. Your quiet voice manages to drown out almost everything else. Sometimes you are my best friend, you’re always there when I’m alone, reminding me of how you were there for me when the world wasn’t a safe place. At other times I hate you, and the way you have managed to take my life hostage.

Over the years you’ve kept me company in my darkest moments, you’ve held my hand when no one else would. Yet the cost of keeping you in my life full time is too high. You ask that I give everything to be with you, hiding in dark rooms so we can be alone. You tell me I can’t live without you, and up until now I believed you, but the day I started defying you was the day I realized I no longer needed you always by my side. You once were my greatest protector, but now, sometimes, you are a parasite feeding on my soul.

I tried to fight you, but I realized that you just became stronger the more I resisted you. One day I embraced you and I saw you shrink and walk away. You never wanted me to know that the way to overpower you was to love you.

I wish I could kick you out of my life, but you will always be near by, so I think we could work something out. Maybe we could just have coffee once in a while and share our memories, rather than being joined at the hip.

I want to end by saying I will always love you and honor you for protecting me when I needed you most, and I look forward to the change in our relationship and the years to come.

Love,

Asa