My heart is broken, shattered into a million pieces years ago when I was young. My life feels like a journey of finding each individual piece and gluing them back together, one by one. I'm forced to pause to examine each one, and relive the memories and pain before finding the place it belongs. There … Continue reading The Broken Heart

So many things are unknown, so many things are up in the air. I wish it bothered me more, as if it would make me more human to be upset, but it doesn't. I'm fine with things not working out for now, I'm happy and at peace wherever I am. My home was a cage … Continue reading The Unknown

The nation gripped with panic The world shutting down People hide with fear I remain strangely calm Safe in my bubble of unicorns and legos My books surround me in comforting towers The unknown and anxiety is my normal It covers me like a blanket Voices in my head promise security In the blackness I … Continue reading Crisis and PTSD

Imagine if you will a world where scared little girls can create powerful storms with their mind. On tonight's episode of the Alicia Show, hurricane Barry, an odd coincidence or the forces of nature bending to the will of 5 year-old children to keep the real monsters at bay, monsters that would lock little girls … Continue reading The Barry Show

We're in the big room of the brick building, lined up by rank in front of the metal table against the wall. My rank is Delta, I'm always fourth, Gamma to my left and Omega to my right. I've seen this table before and wondered why it was there, a metal ledge bolted to the … Continue reading Trauma Narrative: Animal Sacrifice

Dear Mary, I am writing to you again to tell you, today, that I am so full of anger toward you, but also full of grief and loss at the mother you never were, the mother I never had. Because of you, I am so afraid of who I am, and I wonder sometimes who … Continue reading Letter to Mary

Dear Silence, When I was a child, you looked me in the face and told me you were the only one who loved me, that you would never betray me. I believed you with all my heart because you were the only one who was faithful, who never lied. In a world where the lifeless … Continue reading Letter to Silence

Dear Shame, I first met you when I was young child. You are introduced to me by people in my life who are supposed to love me, supposed to care. Instead they abandoned me and left me with you. If there's anything I can say about you, you are faithful. In all the years we've … Continue reading Letter to Shame

The blackness consumes me Thick sludge running through my veins Terror shrouds like a blanket Stealing my breath The sea of my feelings pounds me in waves The tide of my soul swallows me whole Feeling perpetually lost, I walk the beach of my life on dark nights The stars tell me stories I will … Continue reading Facing the Storm

Dear Loneliness, You've been a presence in my life since I was born, comforting me on the long days and nights when I cried alone. You provided a warmth and comfort to me when no one else would. Sometimes you quieted my screams and wiped away my tears. You were truly there for me when … Continue reading Letter to Loneliness